January 16, 2005 - 4:24 p.m. It's so hard to sleep these days. I'd really rather be awake doing something, taking it all in, watching another movie in the company of good friends or talking about something great or small. The hardest part is realizing that I can't wait everyone else out. I can't survive if I'm the last one to go to bed, because the other kids simply need less sleep. I've learned to function on comparatively little--we're talking six hours or so--but I can only keep running on this so long. How do I tell myself to go to sleep? How can my dream world possibly be better than the real world? ...before & after...