June 02, 2005 - 12:04 a.m. Living alone is only hard at night. The last two nights, and tonight too, I've only felt insecure or lonely at night, after I've parted with all of the people of the day (Spencer, especially) but before I fall into dreamland. I guess I'm so worn out from the day that I just can't deal with anything anymore. The really messed up part is that after being with people all day, I really want to retreat to a quieter environment. I guess this is just too quiet. I don't understand; I love having my own private space. I guess I just wish I had someone to share it with. I always thought I could live by myself, but I'm beginning to understand why God made spouses and families. ...before & after...