January 01, 2005 - 7:59 p.m. This New Year's isn't as scary as the last one. I'm indifferent really to the changing of a four to a five. As always, the change is a little unnerving because I fear that I didn't do with 2004 what I was supposed to. But really, I did. I graduated. I survived my first semester of college. I have wonderful friends both at home and at school. I don't have any great hope for 2005 other than to continue on the path that I have started. I don't have any grand Resolutions because I'm generally content. (You may scoff based on my entries lately, but I am happy. My bouts with depression are thankfully ephemeral.) Do I know more than I did this time last year? Yes. I know more about change. I know more about myself. I know more about what it's like to live with people, and that I really shouldn't be this selfish. Who knows, though. Maybe this year will be a life-changer. God-willing, it will be for the better. ...before & after...